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Getting Things Done

I’ve spent many years trying to find some process, trying to understand how to attain the supposed goals I had in mind, but I failed to realize what those goals were. I’ve wrestled in myself for so long, a battle between feelings, desires, and reason for what I would, or would not, do. The application of some process, however, when all the parts are not working together, will fail. Mine was a problem of doublemindedness, and so whatever the things I wanted I failed to get because my analytic mind was so often in conflict with ever other part of me. Now, in knowing the parts, the soul, the heart, the mind, and accepting what each provides in regard to the self, I can make decisions based on my understanding of the whole of myself and not just as simple analytic calculations. I feel so much more free. I feel so much more myself, but perhaps more importantly, I feel okay about feeling.